why is it.

that when i wake up.

i just can't wait to end the day.


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i've had this really annoying headache that won't go away for the last two days.
maybe its due to my sudden reliance on coffee.
or maybe its because i have lots on my mind.
or maybe its because i am dehydrated.
or maybe its because i have a tumor?
or maybe its because my brain is being stupid and wants to in some way destabilize me so i am unable to do anything (not that i am stable to begin with.)


yes.
that's it.

so because of my stupid headache.
and me taking advilpm.
and my low tolerance to just about anything.
i fell asleep at like 9 ish, woke up now, and just don't know what to do with myself.


SO MUCH TO DO.
SO LITTLE WILL TO DO IT.

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i miss my mama. :(

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my roomate once called me a "homebody"
i guess i like to go home and relax and be in my pajamas. even if its for a little bit, an hour and a half is a nice ideal time frame in which i can indulge in my "rests" in the middle of the day. it relaxes me. i like to eat. and be in my pajamas.

but i hope i don't become a permanant homebody. that will make me sad.

and you know what else is sad. my couch is a comfier bed than my real bed. damn springs.

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i've had some real nice conversations with different people from different every wheres. its nice to be around activists and just COOL ASS PPL. they make me smile.
thank you nice ppl. also, ppl who care are very nice too. its nice to get random phonecalls that check up on me. i really really appreciate it really i do. it keeps me sane.