how come.

i'm so tired.

and i look at my schedule. and i look at my calenders. and i just look at myself.
and i just don't know how to stop.
how can you say no when you have to say yes?

this is probably another one of my daily burnouts when this weird fatigue has overcome me and i can't really eat or sleep or stay awake in class. nor do i care for class. then which makes me think of why i am even going to class and falling asleep in the first place. mini-burnouts suck. my friend told me, or rather we both decided that monday was our new day! and everything starts on that day. and i guess i feel this disappointment that i can't change anything right now. i can't change my schedule.

turnsmileshiftrepeat.
meetingmeetingsocialchangeourcommunitiesoursolidaritycareforourpeoplemeetingmeeting.


just pure exhaustion. although i love what i do. i'm perfectly content with the activities i am doing and love love love them very very much. and probably the reason why i don't concentrate on school so much is because i love people too much and i would take the time for people any day, almost any time.

is it too selfish for me to not want to feel exhausted anymore?

fucking 6hours of sleep. look what it does to me. :) i'm jibber jabbing and have lots of things on my mind. hmmm let's list them.


butterflies
cityreg112
my readings for classes
mcb41
ph150e being boring
me not sleeping
me not eating right
me not wanting to cook
workshop this friday
more butterflies
trying to make time for myself
me feeling like i'm not taking any classes
me not getting good grades :(
calserve
my lovely friends
my bff's
reachreachreach <3




life.

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i shook the chancellors hand yesterday whoa. so i got to ask him a question on behalf of the api community on campus:

so as you know the asian pacific islander community on campus encompasses many many ethnicities, and this results in the need for the disaggregation of demographic data on uc applications, basically to break up the data on the api community even further than what it has now. and also, because on this hollistic umbrella term of asian pacific islander what results is the lack of representation of marginalized api communities on campus.

now what are your thoughts on that?


now the chancellor, nice sorta honest man, reply was lacking. and showed he did not competely understand the needs of our communities as he was only talking about the pi community when we addressed our concerns. how much will he really take into consideration when thinking about the university. i dunno. but apparently our new $50 million dollar research opportunity on energy will solve everything.

interesting.