i am done.

with this tireless shit.
effortless pit.
meaningless bliss.

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my cousin puts "rape" and "dick" on her myspace like nothing.
followed by an equal sign.
and bracket.
to make a happy face.
she is 13.
i cringe as i think about those who suffer, struggle, and pained through the oppression and abuse from sexual abuse.

and here is my young little cousin nonchalantly placing these words on myspace. to grab people's attention.
of course: i get the reply of "im not serious! im just joking MAN."
and a look and sound of apathy and ignorance that makes me feel so helpless and scared.
she is being used. objectified. and she doesn't even know it. the fact that she thinks its okay, that she's playing r kelly music, because it as we shall say "cool."

she puts make up on.
she puts eyeliner on.
she puts short skirts on.
she is 13.



i can't even express how disappointed i am with myself when i cannot get them to UNDERSTAND that this is nothing to joke with. i just come off as some activistystoptalkingtomeadult.

i want her to realize that the world is not happy place. that it is not full of jokes. but that you can do something about it. and that ur words are as strong as your intentions.

but with only the media, highschool oppression and standards, and no guiding figure.
she has nothing else to rely on.