i can't help it.

but i dread school.

never have i dreaded it so much. maybe its the repetition. maybe its the disappointment that i MIGHT find as i enter my second year. i had such a huge disappointment in everything last semester, from school to activities.


never have i felt so useless.
or unfufilling ever.


weird that i thought i was doing so much.
but it felt like i was doing nothing, nothing for myself.
so i dread.

i dread that this semester will be a mirror of the last.
but i suppose that's up to me to decide. and i must make the best out of it.

but how can you do that when time/space has you on a chokehold.


world please make life better. pretty please :(

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things i need to do:

1. exercise.
2. eat healthy :) (give up soda and juice and eating out less.)
3. finish things.
4. less is more.
5. my guitar.
6. meet new ppl.
7. give up facebook and myspace.
8. only check it once a day. haha.