i must say.

:)

i am so weird.
my thoughts seem to be congealed into one and mixed up in a blender until i can really no longer dicipher (nor can i spell) what the fuck i feel.

what
have
i
done.

ppl are so weird.
and i sometimes think what the fuck are we.
and how can we let fucked up shit happen.
and how can we not understand each other.



only because you are not directly exposed to it.
only because it doesn't affect you on a daily basis.
only because you haven't been through it.
only because you have not beenhurt by it.


but i'm guilty as charged.
its hard to be human.

i continuously look at the big picture, almost every minute of my life.
but for what reason?
and it seems that i'm not living in the now.

oh my.

p.s. i only cuss in private. no worries.