as

people weave and out in my life
never to speak to me again
or rather occasional conversations
wondering whether and why this matters at all

why sadness often consumes me for no reason,
then I sit back and realize

that this is it, this is life.


and as much as I detest this quote, that life is what you make of it, since i'm such a lazy ass and prefer natural unplanned delights.


but it ain't gonna happen with me sittin' in front of this computer I tell you.
and it ain't gonna happen for you either.

it's true.

so true.

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got nervous
stepped to the side
and sighed


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i have been thinking about technology alot these days,
its only pushing us further and further away
making it ok to not hear someone's voice
or say hi to someone
or to remember their number.



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my mind is so boggled. and jumbled cos i think waaaaaaaaaaay too much about everything and anything and always almost always overstimulate my senses to the point where i don't really know if my experiences are real or fake or whether you reading this will really matter because i will never be aware of the fact that you even care about my life and then i retreat into thinking that no one cares about me because in fact i am sitting in front of the screen typing this by myself with my headphones with my mind so boggled. so jumbled. cos i think waaaaaaaaaaay too much.