the

reason why
i think i've figured it out
its that i think a certain way, and its constantly being suppressed, put aside, or forgotten in this routine/goal driven world of ours.
we seek for the routine
rather than the out of the ordinary
as an artist i discovered that i could show the way i think in a constant manner
its really when im most happy
thinking in this weird way


the transition going back to it, having not thought in that way in a long time was interesting to me
although i am only back for a short amount of time, others notice and acknowledge
and i think its my turn to finally acknowledge my passions


to no longer neglect it
to no longer hide it

and i feel like im in this neglected world of mine, and that i don't 100 percent click with ppl for those reasons, there are a few ppl i click with, few few few

and when i say click, i mean, if i disappeared they would truly be sad, not disappointed, or temporarily shocked, but truly sad. those are ppl i click with.



but again i say its a few, i tend to go off on these mindful tangents that make me feel lonely. in fact i am lonely. i go for most of my day by myself, without a single phonecall but some texts. its funny when ppl who you used to share such a bond fade when other bonds are created.

which then reconnects me to my frustration with ppl's reliance on technology. my laptop is currently my moobook. since ironically (i love cows) i spilled milk on my laptop and now its finally corroding the logic board.

but anywho, i think my next art piece will somewhat explain my frustration with ppl's need to glue themselves to a screen for several hours a day.

its ridiculous. mad ridiculous, have you seen WALL-E?! nothing but truth spoken in that little 3-d movie. although ironically hours was probably spent in front of a computer to create such an animation.

i no longer hear talking
i hear clicking/ typing more than i do talking

but ok enough of this regurgitation of my thoughts from the last few weeks/months. i miss the days when technology wasn't something that was used to erase the awkwardness of human interactions.

i miss that awkwardness



i also enjoy miscommunication, because it unsettles you and makes you think just a tad bit more.

and quite frankly a fucking computer can't think for us.