once

i was really good at hoola hooping.

i really was
my mom bought me this pink one from toys 'r us.
i beat my elementary classmates
i even won a signed book at a children's convention
but i stopped
and i tried years later
but lost it.

and fuck
i can lose more than my hoola hooping skills
these days.

can't







my grandpa told me that art kept him alive.
His inspiration came from anything anywhere
my inspiration comes from him.

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somtimes i'm talking to you
but i'm not speaking to you

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restless as always.